Soooooo, hello again all. Things are always bustling around here. sickness, co-op, stressful mammogram ordeal, mom's cataract surgery, debit card # stolen and sold to the world, garage door hit by new driver, chapel, conferences, (forgetting to go let the dog out during that 7 hours), did I mention sickness?, trying to do the everyday things like laundry, dishes (what would I do without the dishwasher my husband "forced" on me a couple of years ago), cleaning, nagging my children to do their chores, taking the dog outside, taking him to the vet, groceries, oh, and don't forget home school, and then feeling guilty because the night I told someone that I would come to a meeting, I wasn't feeling well (such cramps I was curled up in a ball on my bed) and now she is not speaking to me..... this is when that saying "stop the world, I wanna get off" comes to mind.
I keep telling my friend Lori that we need to purge. But what out of those things can you purge? Because I need something to keep me sane... so I add to the list, sewing. I actually have approximately 5 quilts in the works and a list of other ideas swimming around in my head. I have a whole years worth of scrapbooking to catch up on before the end of the year. And could I just tell you what a mess my craft room is...whoooey!! That is my project for today. Do you think I'll get to it? Maybe not, but I will......have breakfast with my mommy, because she won't be here forever, cuddle with my hubby and kids, sew a little, do some laundry, talk to my sisters, make some meals and hopefully close the pool....(because playing in that freezing water is not good for the joints....eeeks!). And to add to the whole day add the fact that I'm up at 3:00am on the computer, may not go back to bed....hm, sounding like maybe my to-do list is tooooo long.....
I love my life, really I do. It is stressful and hectic, but it is mine and the Lord is always gracious to supply just the right amount of patience and strength to help me endure. Sure, there are tears, but I think He lets those flow to release the pressure on the valve. :-)
"then they cried out to the LORD in their trouble and He saved them out of their distresses. He brought them out of darkness and the shadow of death and broke their chains in pieces."
Psalm 107
"You number my wanderings; Put my tears into Your bottle, are they not in Your book?"
Psalm 56:8
"for He knows the secrets of the heart" Psalm 44:21
"Cast your burden on the LORD, and He shall sustain you;" Psalm 55:22
"In God I have put my trust, I will not be afraid, what can man do to me?"
"surely I have calmed and quieted my soul, like a weaned child with his mother; like a weaned child is my soul within me" Psalm 131
And I know that He always give me the sleep I need..."for so He gives His beloved sleep"
Psalm 127
These are the truths that I try to focus on during the chaos of everyday life. I struggle with focusing on myself too much and am praying that the Lord would help me to focus on others more. I believe the more I do that, the sweeter it will be.
